Sometimes it's good to have time at home alone. I woke up this morning to an empty house, everyone had already left to start there day with school or work. I was feeling a little down, wondering what I am going to do, knowing I am going to have to have the decision made rather quickly. To be honest with you the thought of having radiation on my mouth scares me. I don't think I would be quite as scared if it were on a different part of my body, the thought of having my mouth and tongue burned for six weeks straight scares me!!!! Not to mention the fact that I will probably finally get to experience the dreaded feeding tube!!!! As I was thinking on these things I also began to think of Bro. Jones's message yesterday. It was about dealing with thorns in our lives, how Paul had a thorn in his life that he had asked the Lord to remove. I have not asked the Lord to remove this from my life, not because I don't think He could, but because I have felt from the beginning that it was His will that I go through this. I still don't know all the "why's?" and I may never know, but I know He allowed this to come into my life for a purpose and so it has been my desire to trust Him. As I was home alone today, I began asking the Lord for guidance. I want to walk this path in the way He has designed for me to walk it. I can't say at this point I have the clear cut answer but what I can say is I have a renewed sense of peace. While thinking on these things the Lord brought a song to my heart, I may not have all the words correct but it was:
"Knowing that Your ways are always perfect, I will trust You and I will give You praise. And as I look forth to what ever awaits me, I just want to stop and say Thanks!!!"
6 comments:
Praying for you today.
You are a strong women and I am proud of you for putting this in God's hands and not trying to do it on your own. Stay strong, take one step at a time and know that there are people who think about you in their daily prayers!
Debbie,
I have thought about you all day and want to help you in some way. i called Dr. Johnson and I am still waiting on a call. Maybe tomorrow.
Let us know what you all decide on the radiation.
Love & prayers,
Karen & family
Ms. Debbie, you are truly an inspiration to me. A real blessing. I just cry thinking of the grace that I see God working in you life. We are praying for you.
Dearest Debbie,
Well, I am going to try this again. This is my first time to ever post on a blog and I am trying to learn so I am having to do over again...
It was such a blessing to get to see you this evening at Walmart. The Lord knows what we all need..
I wanted to share something with you. I was seeking the Lord on what to share or what scripture to leave with you tonight. The word "mouth" dropped in my heart. Seemed fitting...so I just went to searching and wanted to share these with you:
Ps 51:15 " O Lord, open my lips; and my mouth shall show forth thy praise.."
Ps 40:3 "And he hath put a new song in my mouth, and even praise unto our God: many shall see it and fear, and shall trust in the Lord."
Ps 103:6 "Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's.""
(I like that! What a beautiful promise!)
Ps 119:88 "Quicken me after thy loving kindness: so shall I keep the testimony of my mouth."
(What a testimony you have in this trial)
Romans 10:10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteoness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation..
So Debbie, keep confessing His grace, His mercy, His goodness, His loving kindness, His word,
Here are a few others if the Lord so leads you in this direction..
Ps 63:5, Ps 71:8, Ps 71:15, Ps 119:103, Ps 119:131, Ps 126:2, Ps 145:21, Luke 1:64
Lastly, because you are looking at His grace..
2 Cor 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness."
With all my love and prayers,
Kim E.
Congratulations on the Mom Contest- you deserve it!!
Love,
Karen & famiy
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