Friday was my one month from surgery anniversary! I feel as if "I've come a long way baby"!!!
The Lord has been good to me. I know there are so many people going through unimaginable grief, that my little ordeal seems quite trivial. The Lord has shown me so much over the last few months. Some times it seems like we dwell on the bad things in this world and spend little time looking at all the good. The Lord has opened my eyes to the fact that there is still a lot of good in this life. I am still amazed at the thoughtfulness of His children. I have received cards, letters, phone calls, and e-mails from so many people, even from people that I really don't know well, who have took the time out of their lives to let me know they are thinking of me and praying for me. It has truly been an amazing, humbling experience. There have been many times that I have felt the prayers for me, and know it was because of God's people praying for me that I have made it through as well as I have.
I can still only open my mouth about a half an inch and my diet still consists mainly of some form of potatoes. But on the up side, I have lost 20 pounds, without even breaking a sweat!!! The inside of my mouth is not sore except for one little place where my mouth piece rubs. Since I haven't been able to open my mouth very wide I have not been able to fully acess the "damage", but it feels like it is healing well on the inside. I have not had the courage to let my tongue travel inside any of the surgically created crevices though!!!! If I ever do I will let you know what it feels like . I think if my tongue was just a little bit longer I could probably stick it out my nose, wouldn't that be cool!!!! I woke up this morning, forgetting I was a changed woman, and popped open my diet coke can and took a big gulp, just like old times. Well ,needless to say, as I was running to the bath room with coke foam spewing out my nostrils I quickly remembered things aren't quite what they use to be!!!!
On a more serious note.... I have an appointment with the radiology oncologist this Thursday, April 30, at Vanderbilt. I will find out if I have to have radiation treatments. Please help me pray the Lord's will will be done in this matter.