Sobering Words

I had my second surgery yesterday. It was scheduled for 4:00 p.m. so I was elated when they came and got me at 9:00 a.m. It was such a relief to get it going. They did it under local anestesia again although this time it didn't go as well. I woke up in the middle of it!!!!! The pain is indescribable!!!! This is the second time I have woke up in the middle of a surgery. The first time was about 10 years ago when I had a hystorectomy. It is something I will not forget. Anyway, he cleaned out the paritoid gland and the infection again and removed the drainage tube. They allowed me to be discharged and come back to the condo last night. I had to go today to the Infectious Diesease Doctors office and again tomorrow before we start back to TN to get antibiotics and fluids. I felt worse this morning than I have felt in a long time but am starting to feel a little better now. The infectious disease doctor informed Wendell & I yesterday that this was a very serious "life threatening" infection. But it is now under control. Boy those were sobering words. "Life Threatening". I know as always God has a purpose for everything but sometimes I start to question what it is. Sometimes He sheds light on it for me and sometimes I just continue to trust. I was having problems understanding why I had felt on the mend before we left home and then get here on a much desired vacation only to be miserably sick. My neck has been swollen for quite some time and has been getting stiffer and stiffer. When I mentioned it to my regular doctors they said it was normal and just to exercise it. We now know this infection has been there for quite some time and really believe the Lord led us to these doctors here to get the treatment I needed before it was too late. God is so Good. Why do I ever question? We will go for more treatments tomorrow before heading home and then Monday they have it set up for me to recieve home health to finish ten more days of treatments. The ENT here has also arranged for me to get a feeding tube placed Tuesday evening in Knoxville. He said he has never had anyone survive this head and neck cancer without one, I am unable to get enough nutrition to fight off infections. At this point I am resigned to do what ever is needed. Thanks for your faithful prayers for me and my family. Poor Wendell has stood beside me every step of this journey, never leaving my side. He takes care of everything I have needed. I am soooo blessed.